Two Perspectives

We had the Unloving lecture in our Strongholds class last week. To date, we've talked about:

- The spirit of Bitterness
- The spirit of Accusation
- The spirit of Rejection
- The spirit of Unloving

As far as I know, we will still cover Fear, the Occult and some walking out orders. Before the class started, I identified Fear and Rejection as my two biggies. The more I learn about each, the more I can see the presence of each in my life. Of course, that can feed Rejection as I battle thoughts of being "really messed up"...but that is one perspective, a narrow enemy-led view of my life, past and present.

The other perspective, the Godly perspective, is quite different.

I believe the Lord is unveiling stuff to me in a timely, intense manner because He really wants me to shed this crap/junk/toxic waste and claim my Sonship in His Kingdom. I believe the enemy is threatened by this and has always been threatened by this. That's why he's applying the full-court press, and has been doing so way back to the beginning.

The beginning for me was a mother's womb that had struggled to conceive, that had miscarried a short time before I was conceived. I didn't learn that until much later in life, but I remember being struck by the magnitude of that. If my mom hadn't miscarried a child, I wouldn't be here. There was joy that came from pain. The Lord was at work, and was my protector in an environment where the enemy was doing his thing, killing and bringing pain.

I confess this can easily lead to pride..."Hey, I'm really important, I've got some really BIG stuff to do." That totally obstructs the so-called little stuff I'm called to do. You know, love people, care for them, teach them, support them...essentially, walk around like Jesus and be a blessing. Small actions that through the Lord ARE the "Big stuff" He calls us to.

Wow, an insight all from getting back to being diligent with a little blog.

Cool.