Gut Reactions to Rejection Lecture

So, we learned about the spirit of rejection this week. Steven gave this definition - Rejection is misplaced identity resulting in idolatry of affirmation and a dismissal of the acceptance we have in God.

Yep...makes sense. I see it in my life. Lots of it.

I can identify doorways in my life that have given it access.

Parents divorced when I was in middle school.

Older brother ran away from home when he was 16 yrs old and we can barely keep in contact now.

My dad's dad split when my dad was 4...the only grandpa I knew was my step-grandpa. I know NOTHING about my "Grandpa Cassidy." It's weird. People ask if I'm related to this Cassidy or that Cassidy, and I have no clue. Maybe, maybe not. All I know is that he struggled with alcohol and he bailed.

Let's see, what else.

Dad was definitely a workaholic. Traveled on TDY for work a lot, would be gone for a whole week at a time often.

My older brother was adopted. The way I envision these spirits is that they just hover around...even if you don't have your "own demons", you can feel the impact from someone else.

Abandonment...my grandparents hit up the Rose Bowl parade when I was born in California. I was due Dec 22 or something like that, but decided to pop out on Jan 1 while they were in Pasadena for the parade. It's a funny little story, but I never really probed my mom to see how she felt. And since it's come to mind now, I know she did feel some sense of rejection.

Lack of nurturing...well, Mom did have to work a lot more when it was just the two of us.

Snubs...never made an athletic team I had to try out for. I enjoyed sports, and excelled at running, but as I type that I realize I told myself Track and Cross Country was for the hacks that couldn't do "real" sports. What a bunch of crap.

Snubs could really be it's own posting as I think about it. I was laid off from my job about 3 months ago, and I love that it pushed me to pursue a job in the education field, something I feel really called to do and continue to receive words of encouragement. But still, while I say the right things, I have to watch the Bitterness toward my old company, the boss, the supervisors, the co-workers. It's toxic and it does come back again and again, like something from a horror flick.

That is a lot of access to my heart right there, and I'm only scratching the surface.

I'll keep digging and exploring my innermost being. My Creator knows it, so I want to have Him show me around. Show me where he is remodeling, where he is renovating, and where he is simply going to do a demo.

Psalm 27:10 -
Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.

Thank you Daddy for that.

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